It’s been a while since I logged in, and sometimes I can’t help but scoff a little at how consistent I am over the years, that some things don’t change. I tend to feel an urge to blog when I have a lot on my mind, as though I feel the need to release some of that emotions / thoughts out into the world as a way to find my balance again, which is why a lot of my posts tend to sound . . . emo. 🙂
I was just looking at my drafts, and found one dated 11 December 2024, on how terrified (and excited) I was about something I was going to embark on. I had finished writing the post, but hesitated on hitting that ‘publish’ button, as if doing so would ‘jinx’ it somewhat. Well, I just published it. Belatedly.
It feels almost surreal to think that I’ve done it and come back. And to think of everything I’ve achieved, lost, and found in the year away. It was a time of stepping forward, going backwards, circling in no direction for me. There’s still a lot to unpack from that experience, some of which I’d hold so close to my heart for the rest of my life, for good or for worse, I don’t know.
For now, it seems like I might put forth a tentative foot back into the world of blogging.